I ain´t Superman, so I´m not gifted ...

Why can´t I prophesy, perform miracles or cast out demons, maybe heal the sick? Why can´t I be like the characters portrayed in the Sunday school´s stories I grew up listening to and do the things they did. Ever since I was a little boy I aspired to be like Elijah, Moses, Abraham, Isaiah, and all those big personages in the Bible, so I could move stuffs or predict something is going to happen. I remember staring at pens and believing that if I´d really trusted God I could ¨make it move¨, while my eyes and brain were drying out, absolutely nothing happened. A lot of times I thought I´d ¨trusted¨ God to give me the things that I wanted, but God knew I wasn´t really trusting but testing him. I used to think that supernatural gifts were better, more important and please God the most. It was so hard for me to realize that every gift is unique and needed.

For the past two years I´d been feeling somewhat useless and lost(without a purpose), whether I was on a missions trip, at a local churches, even at school or anywhere. So, this year was all about spiritual gifts, I desperately wanted to know what my gifts were to serve God better. I was so excited to know the results, here are some of the highest: Service 20, Mercy 19, Giving 18, Helps 18, Knowledge 17, Shephard 17, Discerning 16, Hospitality 16, and lowest: Healing 2, Miracles 1, Tongues 0, Interpretation of Tongues 0, Ekballism 0.

I don´t think it´s bad(like if I´m going to die or something) not to have ALL the spiritual gifts, but it does saddens me that my gifts incline more on the humble side; the side that not everybody sees or doesn´t really think it´s important and take for granted. If I was to be a leader or someone who can interpret tongues or miraculously heal people, they´ll respect and treat me as a human being should be treated.

S.O.S
I can´t find any connection between my personality and my spiritual gifts!! ;(
Do you see any? Please comment... I really want to know how my spiritual gifts fit my personalities..